Lesson to Learn

I’ve been so called “fall in love” or grow a liking with someone so far it can be count by my finger.

One girl when I was at primary school
Two girls when I was at high school
One girl when I was at the uni
The last two girls after uni

It doesn’t mean that I’ve been in relationship for 6 times, many rejected, few accepted and some left unspoken.

Wondering how much is the time and energy I spent for an unfruitful things. There is one time (so far that I can remember) I only get back on my feet after 1 year. But honestly I cannot said that unfruitful because God teach me a lesson to learn.

So what the lesson that I learn:

People said that it’s better to fall in love and heart broken rather than never in love before. And I said it’s wrong, believe me that it’s better not in love at all.

God reveal a lot about my character when I felt heart broken.  How my insecurity and jealously play a strong part in my character

That things doesn’t always have to follow our will since God ways is higher than our ways and He has the best plan.

Loneliness cannot be solved by your girl friend or wife since you must settle it out yourself and with God.

The best time to improve your character is when you are single and not in relationship.

Enjoy our season in time whatever it is.

Face rejection, when you are rejected it doesn’t mean that you are ugly or bad but maybe she is not the one. Life still goes on buddy.

Character is more valuable than beauty.  Beauty can fade while character not.  So even we as man look at the appearance but consider the character as well.

I cannot recall the rest, I thing I need to record it down. And I’m exactly doing it that right now
For this year I tell God that I don’t want to enter any relationship. I want to use this year to grow in my character.

If God give me the choices to go back to the past and whether I want to go through all of this one more time.  I’ll choose to go through it again. because without all my encounter I’ll not be able to know my self better and to trust God  in a higher level

Just my prayer unto God: I don’t know who, I don’t know when and I don’t know how but God suprise me about this area in my life, When the time is right.

Back!

Oh Man … after a long long long break (read: bored, lazy, busy, no time, stress) I feel like writing again. well not this moment because Actually I’m busy right now but this is a good start isn’t it

Umbrellas

As I walk along the Middle Road, with a cool grey sky hanging over me, cold wind touching my face and water dropping from the sky, one thing I notice one thing… the umbrellas.

I’ve notice the office lady using a leaf green umbrella,
a school boy with a silver coating and a maroon inner color umbrella,
a middle age men with a transparent umbrella,
and a lot more umbrellas…

I’m just amazed how actually every umbrella is unique and have its own color. Like us ….. we are also the umbrellas… we are created by God with our own color, shape, personality, …

I’m also aware how often I give comment to other umbrella … oh that color is not so nice… oh that umbrella is too big.. and so on…. Well sometimes it’s good to comment but not every time… one lesson that I get today is…. do not judge other people umbrella or more even do not judge another people… especially their appearance, they cloth, they look.

But if the motive behind is to feedback to that person, by all means do it ^__^

And more than that… be content of who you are…. God always just … and He give us a different talent and make up…

Because this world… will be boring …. if wherever you go….. you only see deep black umbrellas….. But what makes this umbrellas beautiful… because … it has its own color and shape.

For you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made.
Psalm 139: 13-14

Fly Away

If you notice that I’ve not been blogging since CNY. I can only blog when I have distressful mind hahaha.

And during this past few weeks, I’m really worn out. Juggling between my work, church and study. It’ was really hard, not only my body wear out but my spirit also. Maybe people cannot see what is inside, but it was and it is a battlefield. I don’t know how many times I think to give up, to just ignore everything. I just feel I’m alone in this battlefield… talking about loneliness in a crowded place.

Thank God, His grace is always with me. Somehow I manage to go through this battlefield with God, He is faithful! His promises keep me where I am right now and His peace really penetrate my worries.

It’s not that I’m okay right now… I’m still worn out … but It’s getting better, my joy increased ! I can really see how God actually reveal and want me to conquer some part in my heart., now I can understand a bit about what Jesus said in 2 Cor 12:9 “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.”

God also gave me a vision that encourage me a lot, and this is the vision.

I see my self sited on the floor, just fold my knees and warp my hands around my knees with my head in face down position. And then He appeared, He was touching my shoulder gently.

As I look upon Him, He offered His hand to me but I just look at Him, doing nothing. But then He was not just offering His hand but he gave me a pair of wing, a beautiful one, even though it’s small in size but its feather is glowing. And then He point out His finger to sky, without saying a word.

Even without a word, I know what he was trying to say. He was saying “Alex, Fly away to the sky”, God did not say to me to stand up and walk but to fly away… isn’t that amazing

Enough about me, how about you now? I believe that you stumble here reading this specific blog post, I don’t think it’s a coincident. It’s even more if you are right now facing similar journey in your life. I believe this vision is just not for me but for you as well.

Believe me that God wants to give encouragement and assurance to you.

If He can give me wings to fly, He will give you also … and just fly away with Him for a breakthrough…

Isiah 40:29-31 “He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.”

Most Wanted

What’s the latest buzz around Singapore? None other than the escape of Jemaah Islamiyah member, Mas Selamat Kastari , yesterday.

Never imagine that there can be a security leak in Singapore. Why can this happen… personally I don’t know, maybe they planned before? maybe there is insider?

I always assume that Singapore is the safest place, well that’s true Singapore is safe but doesn’t mean there is no crime. “This should have never have happened. I am sorry that it has,” said Mr Wong in an update to the House, adding that an independent investigation is underway. -CNA

And now he is the most wanted person in the whole island.

But there is a lesson to learn:
Preventation is always better than the cure

Imagine if they have been more carefully and aware of the security compare to know where they must do a island-wide searching. It cost resources.

Just like us, we also take things for granted. Take this example “Nevermind no need to lock the window when we go for holiday, anyway nothing happen before and it’s safe here”

Does it ring the bell?

Then the next question is: how about our heart, how do we keep our heart, how do we guard our heart. Do we do it constanly or we only realize after some criminals in our heart escape and make damage; Anger, Bitterness, Jealously, Insecurity and their sibling.

Do let the Holy Spirit guide your heart, when you notice something is not right, prevent it before it break lose. Ask God to help you to overcome it!

Proverb 4:23
Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life.

Note: If you know where he is, please call 999. Hiding him is an offense for your information.

What on Earth Am I Here For?

Yes, it’s a title of a book. But it’s really a good title, I believe that everyone of us at least once wonder why we exist on this small beautiful planet called The Earth. While maybe some people think that we are just part of evolution… just a coincidence, but we are not a coincidence nor part of an accident.

If God is in picture, everything makes sense. And God is real, look at our own body how human body is wonderfully created not mention the spirit that live in the body, each one of us have a unique personality with a different path to fulfill our destiny in the God’s glory.

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Happy Chinese New Year!!!

Hope that you all have a fruitful holiday either with your biological or spiritual family.

Remember to keep your habit of prayer and meditation while for the fellowship I believe all of you will do a lot of fellowship:)

Here’s a greeting card for all of you! specially created by me with Adobe Illustrator… actually this is for my second assignment haha =p Anyway happy New Year once again !

A Different World

This was an entry from 1+ year ago dated back: Friday, December 08, 2006. This is a post when I went back to Indo last time, and It’s actually written in my other blog hehe.

Just want to post this again to remind me, as a reflection …. how blessed I am currently in whatever situation I am right now. “Give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.” 1 Thessalonians 5:18

When I was in Indonesia last week, when I arrived there and drove along the street in Jakarta. I saw many things that we often didn’t take notice because we are used to it. I saw those from the lower income family in the street with very poor clothing, Districts where all the houses is in very bad condition and I never can’t understand how they can stay inside those house. Maybe some of you from Jakarta know how bad the condition of our country especially for those poor people. Small faces from a little children that we often see in the traffic light asking for money. and some of them are really really young … 6 years old … with a dirty face, cloth asking for money …. they spend their time not in the school but in the street … in the traffic light area..

My heart is touched when I saw them. But the sad thing I cannot do anything except giving them a small amount of money and prayer as a blessing. Along the way home, I cannot stop giving thanks to God on what I have right know even thought is not perfect. Most of us stressed because our work, our friends, etc. But look at them they even they fight everyday for a rice and maybe the often skip their lunch or dinner because they cannot afford a meal. Aren’t we fortunate ? I really cannot compare the struggle that they face compare to mine, when I think of it, all my struggles and troubles are nothing compare to them. We can still eat 3x meals a day …. we can sleep with Air cond and a bed …. we graduated from school…… but look at them … they don’t.

 

Maybe yes we can only offer a blessing through money and prayer to those people in Indonesia. But don’t forget we are not in Indonesia but in Singapore. We cannot do much to them , but why we don’t start be a small blessing right here, right now ? especially to those people that really fight with their life to live. I believe that we can be a blessing for them. So if you really still working right now, you can still have you meal later on , you can sleep with peace tonight in your comfortable bed. You are really really fortunate. We can give without love but we cannot love without give.

 

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Good Bye Pak Harto

Our former president has passed away last Sunday, 27 Jan 2008. SBY, our current president declared a one-week of mourning and ordered all flags to fly at half to respect him.

Many people still “love” him, in the sense that they don’t want Soeharto to die yet so they can bring him to the court for justice. For the corruption and human rights abuses that He committed.

Well it’s not a secret anymore that in Soeharto era a lot of unspoken thing going around, corruption is the fact, human rights abuses is proven. Many people do not satisfied even now, especialy those who has been a viction directly or indirectly.

But in the midst of our anger, why we don’t take a look for what he has done for our country. He created PELITA(development for 5 years) and etc (Well I can only remember this hahha, oh my bad memory) and Indonesia economics was stable at that time. He contribute a lot for the our country if you set aside all the corruption and human rights issue.

No one should judge someone else base on feeling alone and everybody deserves a forgiveness. It’s not easy to forgive especially if that person hurt as so much… but remember as well, we ourself sometimes do sin to other person.
“But if you do not forgive men their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins.” -Matthew 6:15

Let us not judge someone because everybody is doing it, maybe we don’t do it outwardly but what about the inside (our heart)?

And if we cannot bring justice then let it be and let God, We believe that God is a loving and fair God, because every single us who is living in this face of earth will have to account personally to God.
“Nothing in all creation is hidden from God’s sight. Everything is uncovered and laid bare before the eyes of him to whom we must give account.”-Hebrew 4:13